One of those days...

It was one of those days...
Right now it is finally quite... there are toys every where... pieces of crackers sprinkled about... and dishes sitting in the sink... but here I sit in the quiet now, alone... I don't even answer the phone when it rings because it would ruin this wonderful silence.

I should be... well I should be doing a lot of things but today I'm choosing not to do them. What a wonderful thing it is to be The Mom... not just because I have two very spring fevered boys, whom I love to death, but for some reason can't leave each other alone today... but because I get to do what I want... isn't that why we wanted to grow up so fast in the first place, to be able to do what we want to do. It seems now though that moments like that are more rare then I once thought they would be. I want to do what I want to do...

but then again, I want a clean house so I clean it, I want a happy family so I smile and nod and give direction, I want my boys to be respectful and kind so I try to be patient as I help them work through their problems... I want a happy husband so I cook dinner and spend time with him doing and talking about the things he cares about...

I guess I do get to do what I want to do... it's just not as easy as I thought it would be when I dreamed it up as a little girl...